A Little Girl Talk from Pam101: Try

I don't think I am in a funk.

You know me. A bad mood might happen here and there but then like most things it simply fades away.

And I can't complain about money.

I mean I did just buy a camper.

I mean my credit card bought a camper.

And I still don't have the rent from my tenants.

Don't even get me started on that. 

So, as I sit here on a Monday night...ready for bed at 915pm...I can't help but ask myself, "What am I waiting for?"

I mean.

Why aren't I out there.

On a date?

In the city?

On Match.com?

Why?

What am I waiting on?

I won't magically change overnight.
I can find a million things to kick the fault on.

But the fault is all with me.

What is the saying, "the buck stops here."

I am to blame.

I need to start trying.

Try to make an effort to meet someone.

I know I am a single girl to my core but I swear I am going to blink and be 35.

Do I want to be 35 and alone?

Am I alone?

Alone isn't the right word.

Because I never feel alone.

Sigh.

These moods come and go.

I just need to try.

Try.

It's just so hard to do.